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If he only knew

 I am the type of person that can’t do anything half ass. I am always all in or not at all. This includes love.  I love beyond measure. I place my heart in the person’s hand for them to care for it. How they care for it is up to them. I expect them to care for it the way I would care for theirs. That’s not always the case. Love comes in many forms and my expectations follow those forms.  My sons are my breath. I love them in such a way that I would give them my last breath. I raised them to be independent and to move on to create their own little worlds. I think I did a fine job. As well or better than my parents did.  My parents are a part of me. Without them, I wouldn’t know how to love and how not to love. I learned both sides of the coin from them. I love my friends and would give the shirt off my back to help them.  In my life I have loved one man with all of my heart. He makes me feel whole. He disturbs my soul. Sometimes in a bad way, some times in a good...

It’s a hard Pill

it’s a hard pill to swallow when you find out where you stand on someone's list of priorities. Everything comes before me. I sit on a back burner, waiting. I wait a lot. I wait to be recognized. I wait to be heard. I wait to feel like I matter. One day, maybe, I will matter.  Maybe one day I will be loved the way I love. Maybe one day I will be someone’s priority.  Today is not that day.