Too loud

 All my life I have been rambunctious and loud.  I know rambunctious is not a word usually associated with an adult. Most of the time I’m told to grow up. I can’t whisper. I bounce all over the place.It’s not something new that I just started doing. I didn’t wake up one morning and decide today I’m gonna get on peoples nerves by being rambunctious and loud. It just comes naturally.

Now, you would think me being on this planet for 57 years, all those around me that I’ve known all my life would understand this about me. Dare I say accept this about me. Nope! I wish I had a dime for every time a person close to me said stop yelling when I’m telling a story or talking to them about something I’m passionate about, your being way to loud when I’m talking in my normal tone, could you please clam down when I’m excited about something. I would be the richest person in the world. I wish they understood how each reprimand chips away at my spirit. It hits me in the heart. They can’t seem to accept me for me. 

Every time some says something to knock my excitement down or tells me to be quiet, I want to run away and not be around people anymore. This has a big part in why I want to get in my camper/van and hit the road. I would be alone with no one to tell me I’m too loud. 

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